April 2010
soo earlier i deff posted up the wrong song...
I wish you could just go inside my body/soul/brain for a moment… I think then it would all makes sense. I feel like i continue to try to explain it but nothing will make sense unless you feel what I feel.
March 2010
I am quite excited for the Tumblr Meet-up on...
purplezebra:
stopstalkingmyshit:
Ya’ll NYC mofo’s better be there!
Im jealous, I wish I could have a Tumblr Meet-up in Philadelphia. To bad only like two of my followers actually live here. -__-
I live here
::presses restart button::
—thankyou.
I still don’t see the progress
don't do it
trying to push the thoughts behind my head, i’m trying….but they keep pushing their way up my throat.
A familiar face is always nice
I’m getting my what seems to be yearly visit from you. It has been almost a year since you picked me up from school to talk… It’s been awhile. You look so different now grown, I’ve looked through your facebook photos the other day. I’m glad you called since I no longer store your phone number, things got so weary after the fall of unfortunate events. I’m happy...
“Glow in the dark”
free write?
wrapped around my soul is this skin- call it gift wrap-but it doesnt make me more appealing- there are no princesses , hearts, balloons or glitter printed on me- corners not neatly folded-my paper is reused creased and lumpy -A man must’ve wrapped me -I am the gift at the table last opened -I am overlooked and under-cared for. Gift wrap, solely because underneath all these ribbons of flesh...
“afraid I am not enough of a woman to complete your ribcage”
70 days of summer
approx
I have no idea what i’m doing and that kindof gives me a panic attack
14 years of summers planned and mapped out.
this summer is up in the air
I need plans before i do something irrational
like making that call
erase them
doubts
doubt
doub
dou
do
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everything is unfolding the way it is suppose to
The only relationship I have ever been in was with
my body…love&hate till death do us part.
just remember the telephone works both ways
I miss my friends from home but we barely talk
i’ve tried but the effort is so onesided i feel
they say they miss me but actions speak louder than words
i wish they would make an effort and like visit me in philly or even make a phone call..
“You know how they say we all looking for sunshine, well where I’m from sometimes...”
– jim jones
simple pleasures
I cleaned the bathroom today and my side of the room
took a shower in the fresh clean bathroom
(which later i did a plaster project and made it kindof messy lol but I’m the only one who cleans it so why not.)
I also did laundry
so tonight im laying in my beater and boxers that smell like apple mango tango
in my freshly washed sheets that also smell like apple mango tango
life is...
living by myself next year?
Not sure if this is a good idea, I didn’t last long living by myself early this year. The place I might be able to get is 5 blocks from school which is not bad but when its snowing and raining idk how that will all work out lugging art supplies to and from moore. I don’t want a new roommate and since I can’t have my current one I rather live alone but I refuse to move back to...
I miss home
but the feeling isnt mutual
Rainy day blues
Waking up to find another day-The moon got lost again last night-But now the sun has finally had its say-I guess I feel alright
dinkadoodledandy:
Back to this. Ugh.
atleast you got a break even if it was a short one..
almost done kindof : /
you use to play this to put me asleep.
i wonder where it leads
The moonshine cuts into the darkness of the city…like a moonlight path i wonder where it leads
“I’m not them…”
the parts i can remember.
the seasons are not the only things that change when I want them to stay -but like leaves things must leave -not everything can stay - in winter i hold memories of spring -so i’ll hold your memories till spring -I’m bending my memory like the pages in my books- i’m holding your place, i just want to hold your place…
I wrote a bomb spoken word today
only problem was, it was in my head : / .
It has been awhile...hi
First girl to every see past my smile, first girl to mention my sad eyes. You use to stare at them and say “something isnt right in there, I don’t know what it is but they bleed sadness”. I use to hate that. All the time you would catch me in the hallways to tell me to smile. You called today, it’s been awhile. You still know when somethings wrong, but we didn’t go...
“… looking in me and not through me. you don’t use me as a looking...”
– me (another unfinished post it)
next year -sighs-
monday
painting 8:30-3:20
drawing1 3:30-6:20
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tuesdays
topics in lit 10- 11:20
modern art 3:30-6:20
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wed
intro to world history 3:30- 6:20
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thursdays
topics in lit 10-11:20
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friday
sculpture 8:30-3:20
I retract my last statement
last post was silly….I don’t want to…not sure how all of my summer will be spent but the parts I do know already make it a better summer than I would have there.
desiderata
Desiderata Go placidly amid the noise and haste, and remember what peace there may be in silence. As far as possible without surrender be on good terms with all persons. Speak your truth quietly and clearly; and listen to others, even the dull and the ignorant; they too have their story. Avoid loud and aggressive persons, they are vexations to the spirit. If you compare yourself with others,...
Listen
cuddle weather...
…i miss you.
“only the blindest fools see art in heARTache”
– —talks with my gwenny
what’s mine is yours always remember that babygirl <3
I took a step today
It was in the right direction, I don’t know the outcome of it but the reason for it is pretty great.
people figured i’ve crossed the line . Truth is there is no line there is only your life..how you mess it up and who is there to save you or who isnt…
—thankyou
“everything is eventual.”
i'm avoiding you
i know i have been from the day you came to camp to visit. I didn’t know till that day what happened to you. I knew the summer before what you were doing, you made little side jokes going into the bathroom or when you stole spoons or things that would aid the process. That day you visited you put a face to the problem, a face, a story and and a solution. Today I find out that you know and...
you you you you
always you.
