oh, well I know you soak your feathers baby upon the ghosts along my trail And I know well I was sole and buried before I knew it was for sale, oh With all this fever in my mind I could aim for your kerosene eyes
I wish you could just go inside my body/soul/brain for a moment… I think then it would all makes sense. I feel like i continue to try to explain it but nothing will make sense unless you feel what I feel.
I’m getting my what seems to be yearly visit from you. It has been almost a year since you picked me up from school to talk… It’s been awhile. You look so different now grown, I’ve looked through your facebook photos the other day. I’m glad you called since I no longer store your phone number, things got so weary after the fall of unfortunate events. I’m happy we are still on speaking terms even if it is only once in awhile..I still remember everything…. I’ve grown so much since that day we met… I think you would be proud… I remember when we were back to back doing the trust/leadership exercise…I messed that up soo much, I still suck at giving directions…every time i’m in the car with you we got lost…the worst time was when you yelled at me and asked me what I was good for. I’m sure we’ll prob get lost on friday but I know you wont yell, you didnt mean it. I’m afraid to play catch up with you though, you could always read me. I never really ever told you much you just knew. On the phone we just talked about females but I know in person you will want more out of me. You always put me on a Pedestal and somehow it was always too high.. I always hated disappointing you.
wrapped around my soul is this skin- call it gift wrap-but it doesnt make me more appealing- there are no princesses , hearts, balloons or glitter printed on me- corners not neatly folded-my paper is reused creased and lumpy -A man must’ve wrapped me -I am the gift at the table last opened -I am overlooked and under-cared for. Gift wrap, solely because underneath all these ribbons of flesh hides my soul
“You know how they say we all looking for sunshine, well where I’m from sometimes we look for the rain just so we could wash away the pain. There’s nothing wrong with a rainy day sometimes, cause you know the sun will soon come…”—jim jones
Not sure if this is a good idea, I didn’t last long living by myself early this year. The place I might be able to get is 5 blocks from school which is not bad but when its snowing and raining idk how that will all work out lugging art supplies to and from moore. I don’t want a new roommate and since I can’t have my current one I rather live alone but I refuse to move back to Sartain (the single dorming where I was living in the beiginning of the year) no no
the seasons are not the only things that change when I want them to stay -but like leaves things must leave -not everything can stay - in winter i hold memories of spring -so i’ll hold your memories till spring -I’m bending my memory like the pages in my books- i’m holding your place, i just want to hold your place…
First girl to every see past my smile, first girl to mention my sad eyes. You use to stare at them and say “something isnt right in there, I don’t know what it is but they bleed sadness”. I use to hate that. All the time you would catch me in the hallways to tell me to smile. You called today, it’s been awhile. You still know when somethings wrong, but we didn’t go in depth kept it casual talked about girls lol neutral ground for both of us. You said you would see me this week, I could use a familiar face from home.
i know i have been from the day you came to camp to visit. I didn’t know till that day what happened to you. I knew the summer before what you were doing, you made little side jokes going into the bathroom or when you stole spoons or things that would aid the process. That day you visited you put a face to the problem, a face, a story and and a solution. Today I find out that you know and youve known my story.. in a way im glad you havent tried to reach out to me.. your waiting though and I can appreciate that. Dyce wants me to speak to you.. I know i should ..I should do a lot…